Do you ever just get in a rut where you feel like your emotions just take over? I so feel like that right now but I can’t pin point the exact thing that is making me just want to break down and cry. Its like warning lights are going off everywhere! Man sometimes being a girl just plain sucks – haha but in the same sentence I wouldn’t trade it for anything – we are complicated creatures for sure!
But in all seriousness its in those times where I feel so close to my Father. I don’t know what it is about those moments that just make me fall deeper into His arms. I’m not saying that when times are good I have no relationship because I most certainly do, but in those times where I do not know where to go or what to do – I know that He hears my cry and that He wants nothing more than to scoop me up and let me know that He is right there. I absolutely love Matthew 11: 28-30 – “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
This world can definitely suck you into the hype – you need this, you gotta have this, you want this, don’t you? Its’s just insane how it can make you feel like you don’t have enough and this is exactly what God is calling our family out of. We don’t need ‘stuff.’ I believe that some people use stuff to measure how successful they are, how wealthy they are. Now I said ‘some’ not ‘all’ so before you get on your high horse let me tell you, I have been there. I have measured my quality of life but the stuff I have had, by what purse I wore or down to the shoes that I had on my feet. It’s not fun. Its tiring trying to keep up with the trend, which by the way changes DAILY!
Besides simplifying my mind which I work on all the time – simplifying my c.l.o.s.e.t. has been one of hardest things I have done. I love my clothes, which definitely shows me that I need to let go. I have let the stuff in my life define me and it has worn me down.
When you have lived out of your suitcase for over two weeks and have another two weeks to go, it gives you time to look at your life. It gives you the chance to really determine what has importance and what holds none. It gives you time to reboot yourself – your family and start new! It definitely brings the emotional side out of me but like I said before, it draws me closer to my Father.
So it’s in these moments that I am truly thankful for this journey. Not knowing what lies ahead is kind of invigorating and scary and exciting – every emotion that one can feel, haha!
What is standing in your way from fully fulfilling your purpose that God has made you for? Really think about that – pray about that and ask Him what it is that you need to let go of so that you can move on.